I'm loving it with all my broken english

to all my fans/fangs (as if this blog has readers)
I'm not at home where internet can be access everyday
so don't miss me,cause i'm going to miss writing this blog

before i came here. i've been living in fantasy land,where evil is good
blood is beverage. where you can be happy at the saddest moment. where you can be dark at the brightest zone.
suddenly reality hits me.
and here i am.feeling nothing.heartless.numb
i just don't know what happen to me anymore.
i miss writing, and reading something

I've been betrayed

There are always reasons why people act certain ways

why is she optimist in everything she does? That's because she was growing up in a perfect family, no financial problem, loving parents and everything seems to be so perfect. that's why she's dreaming of a fairy tale life where she could work like a princess until she become rich, and at the same time she will be happily married with cute children and handsome,rich, kind husband. though i don't agree, but that is how she's grown up to be. true story!!

why Kelly Clarkson doesn't trust men so much, doesn't plan to fall in love, and hate it so much when she had been cheated? Her father left her mom. As a result, beautiful pieces of art.

and why some people are so rebel and pessimist. why people make statements to seek attention? because everything around her is so imperfect. or maybe she doesn't want other people to end up like her.

Other side of the World

This is my second blog.

It started with a previous blog, which i made it public without anyone knew it's mine. Then people start to ask..give me your blog link
I gave to a few, but they advertised it..so i made it private. Only 5 people are invited

I don't like many people to know about me.some things are meant to be dark and mysterious

but i can feel the blog keep reducing its readers

I don't like the feeling of people don't read my blog when there is actually people who read it..so i made it private to all reader. i started this blog, which i made public and noone knows it

it is more secure this way. i love being old me,where i'll write whenever i want to write.People don't get hurt,because they are ignorant.btw,ignorance is bliss.

i'm a true gemini.two sides in everything
even in blogging. so if you wanna know the good side, innocent and welcoming, search for this blog.

but if you wanna know the mysterious side of me, the bitter and screwed, the dark and twisty, the scary and damaged, the pessimistic, sarcastic and realistic. I will invite you to my other blog.
cause you will get hurt badly once you know me deeply.