Sunday, May 30, 2010

Gothic Sanctuary

my site office is one hour from my rented house. so everyday i have to waste two hours of my life driving. cause of the craziness of my work, the earliest i have to go back is at 9-10pm. the latest so far is 1.00am. but the time is not the problem.

the main problem is the sleepiness of driving at that hour. especially my dearest colleague. she always fall asleep while driving.

so i gave her 1 tip. cause listening to music is not working anymore for sleepy people. why don't you remember all the ghost stories while driving. especially the road ghost stories. side mirrors.white dress woman at the side of the road. it works when you're driving at the dark shahpadu highway i guess.

well, it's a lose-lose situation. choose, fall asleep while driving, or seeing ghost? both can cause accidents.



p/s-yesterday, saturday, i stayed alone at the office from noon to 7.00pm. around 7.00pm ++, my colleague called me to talk about work. and then suddenly she asked
"where are you? why is it so noisy? i heard someone laughing"

gulp

so i said.."i'm at the office alone".

and i didn't say it to her, but it's soooo freaking silent here actually...


Thursday, May 27, 2010

northport love letter

It's okay to be a little bit shy and awkward.
it's okay to be a social freak.
It's okay to pretend that you don't care whatever people talk about you, when you care so much.
It's okay to be yourself, cause that's why I love you.. Kristen

the first time i fall for you is not through twilight, but when i saw your trueself during mtv movie award 2009, when you dropped the trophy. you are so different and natural.

and my heart sank deeper when i saw your interview clips and everything. and then, the runaways, which i'm dying to watch.

kristen, if you could ever feel my love.
all the girls are jealous of you. because you can get the hot vampire boyfriend by your simpleness. but i am so freaking jealous with that vampire guy.
i wanna be a vamp for you.
i'm trying to act bravely and like a man for you.
i'm trying to reach you.
and i'm trying to invent the two-way radio for me to reach you.

kristen, if you could ever read me, hear me, love me..

from northport with love,
love of your life

Monday, May 24, 2010

Queens of Noise

with a pinch of rock and a dose of roll
i can warm you up if you get too cold
i can bring you up when you're going down
i can smash your head all over this town!!!

The Runaways - Queens of Noise
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Here I am in the limousine,
once again the lonely queen.


STOP


LOOK


LISTEN


to my HEARTBEAT

The Runaways - Heartbeat
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now i feel like a lonely noisy queen

Saturday, May 22, 2010

happy shiny people

It's a common belief that positive thinking leads to a happier healthier life. As children we are told to smile, be cheerful, and put on a happy face. As adults we are told to look on the bright side, to make lemonade, and see glasses as half full. Sometimes reality can get in the way of our ability to act the happy part though. Your hope can fail, boyfriends can cheat, friends can disappoint. It's in these moments, when you just want to get real, drop the act, and be your true scared unhappy self.
Grey's anatomy episode 22-Happy Shiny People

yes, people always live in denial, because the denial is the hope that the dreams will come true, and the bad things will eventually gone. but, at one point of life, you will get very sick of being optimistic.

my believe is, when people said i don't, it's actually a denial, the hope that she really don't

like "I Don't Love You"
"I'm so over it"

especially when you told other people even when they're not asking. when you think it is, when you hope it is.

and i believe, a person who writes a song about how she is so over someone, is absolutely not over that someone. cause if she is really over him, she won't bother to write a song about him..even a bitter one. the reason she writes, because he's always crossing her mind. in every form, sweet, bitter, sour..
and she needs to hate him. in order not to love him too much

sometimes we need to be pessimistic. so we are ready for every bad things. and if a good thing happens, it's a bonus. AND THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS the only exception. it's the fairy tales thing you hope will happen in the middle of your messy life!! for god's sake, be real. don't always think that you are so special to get the only exception.. but you can make other people feel like she is the only exception. just to make her feel in the zone of comfort.

ok, i'm writing too long. here comes again, the bitter and screwed me..

Thursday, May 20, 2010

let it be

I'm afraid the feeling would slip away
as I am really fickle in love

Monday, May 17, 2010

relationshit status

facebook relationship status

1. Single and Desperate
2. In a relationship and Proud
3. Married and Miserable
4. Widowed and Relieved


p/s- There's a dark story behind every bitter woman - the second daughter of FAR

Friday, May 14, 2010

hot chick

"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb."

"What a stupid lamb"

"What a sick, masochistic lion"







BUT WAIT, HERE COMES THE REALITY...

and so the human being fell in love with the chicken. what a stupid chicken. what a sick, masochistic human..
ok chicken i'm sorry, but i love you enough to eat you!!!







ni yg dh lapar ni

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Have you ever really love a woman

this song reminds me of these two macho men, chris daughtry (for singing this song like a real man during idol) and johnny depp(his movie soundtrack) so much!!


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p/s: I wonder have you ever notice my existence, and realize my disappearance..
and I guess we need constant reminders from God