Owner of a Lonely Heart

Forty years ago, the Beatles asked the world a simple question: they wanted to know where all the lonely people came from. My latest theory is that a great many of the lonely people come from hospitals. More precisely, the surgical wing of hospitals. As surgeons, we ignore our own needs so we can meet our patients' needs. We ignore our friends and families so we can save other people's friends and families. Which means that, at the end of the day, all we really have is ourselves. And nothing in this world can make you feel more alone than that.
Grey's Anatomy, Season 2, Episode 11

it is not only applicable to the doctors, but also to the people who makes other people's life or their work more important than themselves.

but for people who always make themselves important (selfish perhaps?lol), all they want to do is unlonely themselves. by choosing a partner. and sometimes they don't even love their partner. yes, the idea of spinster and being alone for the rest of your life freaks many people. seriously. so they choose to get married to get rid of the loneliness. but how long can it last? 6 years? or 6 months?

at the age of 23, i always receive complains from my friends, how desperate and misery their single life is, how in love they are, how they feel insecure about their significant others, and how they already bored with their partners. and i bet for another 10 years, they will complain, how boring their partner will be, how too much children they have, how lack of money they are, and how to get a divorce.

it's all started when they are afraid to be lonely.

if you ever think for a second, how lucky of you to be alone. you'll have more time for your family, friends, yourselves, pets, money, work-life. and the most importantly, GOD. who will you reach out to if you ever felt lonely? of course Him. and that's everything.

yes it's true, "YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE", as the liverpool anthem says. God is always there for you, if you had no one. and yes, I am always there for my friends, single or not single, though they won't be there for me when they have their very own "the ones" and whatsoever..hahaha.

and please, don't search for a partner because you are afraid to be alone. you'll die alone eventually. let it comes naturally my friends.

para siempre, say you will...

everytime she gets near love, she'll get hurt, before even reach and touch the love. she could only feel from far. when she was young, she was injected with all the possible love stories. but as she's getting older, does edward-bella love really exist? can someone only loves a person if he could live forever?

then, she tried the abnormal love. where she doesn't need to publicize the love, or get hurt publicly. but how? by being a mistress. just to play around. she promised that she will never fall as deep as before. it went very well at first. hiding, chasing and running, makes her feel like a rockstar. and those people think, she is such a miss independent for having a single life. but sometimes, it felt kind of lonely inside when she only had half of that man. only 2 days a week.and she wanted more.

then she found out that man is cheating on her with the other girl. but how? he is cheating with his wife with her too. so it is not so wrong. well, once a cheater always a cheater. she has gone too far. this shouldn't be that serious. that's what you get when you tried to break a marriage, your heart will be breaking too.

and then she looks for something softer. anything but a man. and she found a girl. at first, she's forcing the feeling, cause she knew that she could be happier. this could be the happily ever after she dreamed about. then the girl said, "you don't want me, you just want to be loved. you just love love. you need to learn to love me instead. i am not a weapon to get over your past life. i am someone who loves you, not someone who need to love you in order to save you and your faith in love."

According to Jason Mraz...
And it takes no time to fall in love,
But it takes you years to know what love is...

sometimes it takes years for you to realize it is not even love. you are incapable to sacrifice everything. it's just a little crush. it is something you want so won't be loveless. the point is, human beings are afraid of being the double L, loveless and lonely.

Muchas Gracias
Te quiero mucho mi nino Francesc...

beunos dias

I am about to reveal the story of my love life..later...

I'm not Okay

maybe i need to give away all my secrets
but i just don't find any target to trust

p.s. no one can save me, the damage is done. :C

a very complicated simultaneous equation

based on my calculation and observation,

Germany, had won with 4 goals 3 times, against Australia, England and Argentina.
Uruguay, had won with 3 goals once, against South Africa.
Netherlands, had won with 2 goals 4 times, against Denmark, Cameroon, Slovakia and Brazil.
Spain, had won with 1 goal twice, against Portugal and Paraguay.

what can we conclude.
their lucky number.
Germany-4
Uruguay-3
Netherlands-2
Spain-1

and based on their lucky number and the flow of chart. Germany could won the 4th place, Uruguay 3rd, Netherlands 2nd... and Spain 1st. LOL

xoxoxoxo

isn't it ironic?

i was listening to this song, and someone just called me, just like this awkward situation.

and it happened twice, today and the day before yesterday. what does this mean? ok fine, this is mean!!

then i realize, most of my posts are about this person. and this person has read my blog once, without me giving the link directly. and i don't know if this person keeps on reading my blog. i hope NOT!

Cherie you must try harder

i love the last scene of the runaways. when cherie called joan (live on the radio), to say nothing. just to say hi, or hear her voice. and then, the radio played the song crimson and clover. as if the song is dedicated for cherie, by joan. and joan, smiled a little. which is very cute, because it's kristen stewart. C:

I don't hardly know her
But I think I could love her
Crimson and clover

the movie is not exactly a happy ending story because it is based on true story. and joan really struggled to be a rockstar. and cherie is lucky enough to have the good thing came to her. the movie is about the value of friendship, family and achieving dream.

now you can catogorized yourself. are you someone who is struggling to achieve your dream. or are you someone who is lucky enough to have all the offers come to you without applying them? (can apply to any situation, work, study etc)

whatever it is, be thankful!