para siempre, say you will...

everytime she gets near love, she'll get hurt, before even reach and touch the love. she could only feel from far. when she was young, she was injected with all the possible love stories. but as she's getting older, does edward-bella love really exist? can someone only loves a person if he could live forever?

then, she tried the abnormal love. where she doesn't need to publicize the love, or get hurt publicly. but how? by being a mistress. just to play around. she promised that she will never fall as deep as before. it went very well at first. hiding, chasing and running, makes her feel like a rockstar. and those people think, she is such a miss independent for having a single life. but sometimes, it felt kind of lonely inside when she only had half of that man. only 2 days a week.and she wanted more.

then she found out that man is cheating on her with the other girl. but how? he is cheating with his wife with her too. so it is not so wrong. well, once a cheater always a cheater. she has gone too far. this shouldn't be that serious. that's what you get when you tried to break a marriage, your heart will be breaking too.

and then she looks for something softer. anything but a man. and she found a girl. at first, she's forcing the feeling, cause she knew that she could be happier. this could be the happily ever after she dreamed about. then the girl said, "you don't want me, you just want to be loved. you just love love. you need to learn to love me instead. i am not a weapon to get over your past life. i am someone who loves you, not someone who need to love you in order to save you and your faith in love."

According to Jason Mraz...
And it takes no time to fall in love,
But it takes you years to know what love is...

sometimes it takes years for you to realize it is not even love. you are incapable to sacrifice everything. it's just a little crush. it is something you want so won't be loveless. the point is, human beings are afraid of being the double L, loveless and lonely.

Muchas Gracias
Te quiero mucho mi nino Francesc...