Almost Grown

when we were younger, we can't wait to be grown up.
to be rich
to have own money, car, house.
to be beautiful
so we don't have to argue with our parents in order to have extra money

when i was younger, me and my siblings need to help my mother teaching her students in order to gain extra money. imagine i was 14 years old, teaching 9 years old kid. funny lahh.
when i was even younger, i followed my father to the market early morning every sunday, so i could buy my favorite comics. we don't have to work hard those days, but still we complained, as if we were the president of the most wrecked up country.

but as we are getting older, for sure life gets harder. without even realizing it, we are all alone.
our father is no longer our driver.
our mother is no longer our cook.
our sisters are no longer our roommates.
our brother is no longer our only boy friend.

friends come and go. and because we are too good or too optimistic, we don't realize that our own friend is backstabbing on us. working life is obviously different from study life. we keep saying no, though it is obvious. the environment said so. the people around us said so. then we began to be pessimist. we doubt everyone, even ourselves. prejudice is our very new best friend.

and we are getting less religious. cause we stopped listening to religious talk like we were in school, at least once a day. or at least we don't get the religious talk from our mother.

being independent is terrifying. but somehow, that's what all of us dream of right? oh wait, i remember you said that your dream is to marry handsome rich guy. so being independent is MY DREAM! so, alone, i'll catch this dream. i'll move forward, and if you wanna come along in this crazy ridiculous journey, you can come along.



We all want to grow up. We're desperate to get there. Grab all the opportunities we can to live. We're so busy trying to get out of that mess, we don't think about the fact that it's going to be cold out there. Really freaking cold. Because growing up sometimes means leaving people behind. And by the time we stand on our own two feet, we're standing there alone.
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