the four-letters word is...

we always think the 4-letters word is one of the most important thing in life.


last night i woke up at 2 am in the morning because i haven't perform my prayer yet. after about 3am. i when and checked the liverpool chelsea result. i'm ready for some brokenhearted result as liverpool performances really suck this season. shockingly won 2-0 over the no 1 champion chelsea. liverpool jumps from 16th place (out of 20) to 9th place. sweeterly, my boy scored both goals. oh my boy is back. i'm falling in love all over again.

i don't like to give high hope on things that i want the most. cause it will cause severe heart broken. when we expect the least, and the result is the most, the feeling will be over-joyed.

once a friend of mine laugh about the liverpool anthem, you'll never walk alone. she said that you are always alone actually. so the fans always stick? whatever whatever bimbo. of course we will never walk alone. if we don't have any friends, or family members, or our friends kick us out of her house, WE STILL HAVE GOD. that's why i'm not afraid to be alone. i went to langkawi, terengganu, then johore, kl alone. i knew noone there. everyone thinks i'm brave. only god knows how terrified i was. you can kick me out of your house, i don't care. i used to be independent and alone. i search for a new home myself. my family thought me to be independent. my mom never provide me with her house. i didn't gain 4k a month, working 8 hours a day, 5 days a week, working in a big company doing nothing, through cables, or my relative. i work 16 hours a day, 7 days a week, low-paid salary, searching my own job, at the same time finding my own home, ALL BY MYSELF. and thank god i have really good friends, supporting me. and of course family. i'm never alone. you can throw me anywhere. i am still a liverpool fan who never walk alone.

and i am not a fucking moron who thinks 23 years old is too old to not be married. and desperately obsess over beauty just to attract men. and take advantage of other people's money. and kick friends who i think is not compatible with me. or make reminders to my friends that they owe me as i am a really really fucking good person. if i am that person, i will allow my brother to hit me. oh thank god my parents thought my siblings VERY WELL, with a little bit of rebelious perhaps, so they don't go and hit me. or annoy their friends.
people like her, never hear advice, or take the positive side of bad comments, cause they're full of themselves. cause i tried to advice her so many times. all she did was, show her horsey face.
" i am the main character here. like rosalinda whatever. i am such a beauty with good personality and will have handsome rich nice husband whatever the fuck it is"

okay sorry i'm going to turn off the sarcastic mode.


Walk on through the wind Walk on through the rain Though your dreams Be tossed and blown. Walk on Walk on With hope in your hearts And you'll never walk alone You'll never walk alone. -Liverpool Anthem

btw, the four-letters word is HOPE. :D