writing you off, trying

the emotions explode.
the feelings mixed up.
there's no word to describe.
every sentence full of grammatical error.
every misspell.
wrong vocabulary.

without you.
i don't want to move forward.
i lost the poetry in me.
i stopped writing.
my world is back to ordinary.
my life is suck!

before we were waken up.
we seemed happy.
we laughed like we had forever.
we thought we had.

after we were waken up.
we were caught up in silence.
everytime.
we were one inch away, but we lost for words.
you tried to make a bitter statement.
trying to make me do things that i don't want to.
though you were drunk and i was sober.
the conversation was getting deeper.
you were no longer cute, and i was no longer in sweet silence.
and we ended up in the dark alley, dead silence.
no solution.

before the break.
i tried to show no emotion.
i tried to act perfectly fine.
and i guess you're okay.

after the break.
i live anyway.
you seemed to move on easy.

reunite.
we tried to show no emotion.
we won't look at each other.
won't talk to each other.

day by day passed.
you're so perfectly shiny for me to resist.

after a day together,
a day apart,
then a day together again.
we talked really a lot.
like there's no tomorrow.
you laugh a lot and it's so cute.
i make jokes which is very random.
you brought me to everywhere.
as if you wanna keep me.
but we know that you won't.
i wonder did you ever miss me.
cause i miss you so much.

maybe this is not forever but i'm enjoying the moments.
let me be the victim, cause i don't want to be the bitch.
in this game. i know i'm going to win, but i am the one who will get injured badly.
maybe i won't be able to play the next game.

p/s you're close enough to see that you're the other side of the world to me