i'm not missing you

i dont know why am i so angry lately. angry at my boss, at the client, at the consultant, at the architect, at the construction workers who kept on staring wtf, at my housemate. at my mother for being too caring about me (jgn bagitau mama!) and most of them without any reason.


and no i'm not grieving.
and no i'm not denying.

yes i am

being in a new place sucks.
starting over sucks.
missing ex-colleagues sucks. esp you

when ex-c called at my first day, to ask how is the job, sucks.
when ex-c texted me the third day at night, asking me, have you miss me, sucks.
when ex-c called me the fifth day, just now, to ask how to solve the internet connection at my ex-site office, which i know nothing, sucks. and i was in the worst mood at that time, sucks.

i have to cover one-month missing documentation, sucks.how can i make the inspection reports and the site diary for the whole last month, when i was not there.

and i am not missing you.
i log on to your social network, not because i missed you.

please stop taking care about me.
stop asking me.
let me go.
let me forget you.
let me be happy.
dont let me be angry anymore.

and dont be sad.dont said that you are stress out. dont said you dont want to stay late at office because i was not there.

dont let our friends said that you're sad since i've been gone

and dont tell me that you are sad for the life written for you. and stop complaining about your loved ones. your gifts. especially your soon-to-be gift.

don't waste my tears.

i just want you to be happy.
in this world and after life.
with or without me.