1.love is a fake thing people need to believe in order not to end up alone. face it. people are not meant to be together forever. both will die, differently. no two persons will die together at the same time. be in the grave together. if you go to hell, i will too. no such things. hereafter is the personal evaluation. but the person you think you love, could effect you so much.
2.when you lost your sanity, the stupid love songs you heard on the radio make sense. especially the song can't live without you. how come you tell people that you can't live without someone, when you are still alive. unless someone finds your death note. if you think you can't live, and you are still living, that is how you survived, and you can survive more with glory.
3.i took sleeping pills not because i can't sleep. but because i don't want to wake up in the middle of the night, thinking of WORK and the inappropriate thing in between of this messed up life i have. sleeping is the only time that i am unable to think. i can be stupid and ignorance. maybe i will never know that i am actually snore. and i don't want to remember what i dream. it's tiring, everytime.
4.and taking pain killers can make you happy. seriously. i have tried yesterday. after taking the pills i have started to laugh, after one empty week. and it can not only kill the physical pain, but also the emotional pain. i felt like a crazy mentally disturbed person when i asked the pharmacist to supply me with heavy pain killer and insomnia solution. he gave me 2 choices for insomnia. 1 is the painkiller drugs-medicine. 1 is the vitamin herbs whatsoever. i don't need vitamins. i need drugs to get over the pass!
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errr...i don't want to go to hell :(
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