this is not about you..

i was running,
away from reality and life.
praying for the best.
though it is not what make myself happy.

i am pushing myself hard.
trying to lose a heart.
my legs cannot take it.
so i stopped.

so i looked at the west.
i saw something beautiful there.
and i think it was looking my way,
as i was not sure because of the distance.

i dont want to be there guessing,
so i changed my eye sight to north.
i saw something pretty.
but it never looked my way.

90 degree counter clock wise to west.
i saw something gorgeous.
it looked at me with a little bit of smile.
i looked down instead, embarrassed.

so i decided to rotate again.
to south.
i saw nothing.
so i decided to just stay that direction.