Sunday, May 22, 2011

while my guitar gentle weep

it's so funny how people, in 2011, still used the same old trick in the 90s movie.

make it a bet.

go get that girl.

but that boy lost himself in his own bet.

it's so funny to be the victim, but it is funnier to get victimized in your own game. to lose yourself in your own game. pathetic.

but you did.

It's beautiful
So simple
Like black and white
- KT Tunstall

Saturday, May 21, 2011

when being alone is happy

is grey's anatomy 722 season finale? cause i dont feel like one. it disappoints me. it didnt have the wow-shocking thing like the previous seasons.

the focus should be on mer,cristina and alex. but i feel like their stories were too made-up. i mean, it shouldn't be a real great drama with that. cristina can just accept her pregnancy, but they want something to happen to these 3 characters. so it happens! but not in the interesting way.

maybe the title should really be calzona's anatomy? cause it seems more interesting the last few episodes.

no wonder the season finale is getting so dull, there is no calzona's story.

i kind of want mark and lexie to be back together.

and i have a thing with underdog too. so teddy and her husband will make a good story, maybe the tragic one.

and i really like april kepner. first of all, i thought she will be the chief resident. i voted for her (in my mind). and boom, she is. padan muka alex. the sad part is, noone is happy for her. and she didn't chase and expect it. she just continued with her life. i think she will find it hard like callie did when she was named the chief resident. and the same, she didn't fight for it either.
and it's nice for avery to be happy for her. what a friend. and one more thing, though avery and lexie make a beautiful couple, i dont feel the chemistry between them. and avery is the one who's going to get hurt.


There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone, because what if you learn that you need love and you don't have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever. - grey's anatomy season finale. 7.

Friday, May 20, 2011

killing softly

is this true?
is this real?
or just another dream.

help me
cause i found someone, more heartless, or heart-lesser than me.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Bila rasaku ini rasa mu

i am still new in this guitar area. so, playing guitar gives me so much concentration, a new stress release disorder. and it happens a few times where during working hour i went back home to pee and play guitar. working is stressful.

then i guess, how can someone cries while playing guitar. it's hard to produce a teardrop while playing guitar. so i tried to play miss swift's teardrops song. at first it feels nothing. but when i got involved with the lyrics, be in her shoes. you were in high school, you had a best guy friend, you're in love with him but he never notice you as that because you are just the girl next door. ok, it is so not me, but i imagined i was her. maybe more dark and twisted and emo situation. maybe i should smash my guitar on his face.

but i tried to feel the character.

and guess what, the teardrops finally fell on my guitar.

well done taylor. you are really a songwriter and a musician.

you must be hurt that much.

and, i think i heard it on the radio, that guy drew, came to her 2 years after the song was written or played on the radio (i dont remember which one). realizing that drew is actually him. but it's too late drew. taylor is moving on. you go girl!!

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

fixed and inspired

it's been a while.
i lost for words, and the poetry in between.
i have nothing to say,
so my fingers have something to say.

they strumming it out loud.
i think it's getting better now.

without you, the poetry within me is dead, but i got the rhythm.
get me, fix you up. i am so inspired by you and your style.

it's so hard for me to get the rhythm but i got this three.

kt tunstall - other side of the world
brandi carlile - the story
katy perry - e.t.

thanks. xoxo.