tak mungkin kerna sayang

being with jt, it reminds me of dnch so much. so yesterday, i went log in into dnch's fb and stalked, reading dnch's chat with other girls ha ha haaa (it has been 4 months+ since i logged in)

and today, suddenly dnch commented on my fb attending kenduri..dnch asked where. (mula2 dh cuak, ingatkan dh kantoi still log in to dia punya fb. tp siapa suruh bg password.)

then we chatted. and we dont have nothing much to share. no, maybe a little bit much of missing here and there. but im not in love with dnch, anymore.

and currently waiting for jt's call.

good night

and yes, saya layan lagu malaysia

aku hanya serangga - ?

i dont believe in love at first sight
it is not even love
i never been in one
and it will be very funny if one has been in one - with me~!

its a big lie
i dont believe it

im not an optimist
im not hopeful
but i am realistic and certain
once i believe it
then it is true
though my judgment was injected by the devil a few months back
and i am sorry for anyone who ever gets hurt

despite our differences

into thin air
and vanish

and when you woke up the next day
its the brand new you

and you wished!you might!

sometimes, i wish i could just disappear

he picked what they left.
and you are tired to start over.

it's funny how you waited for so long for someone to take you as you are, and you are trying to change him/her instead. be gratitude.

and it is a relief to see my boss after so long time. *petang tadi i was asked to leave the meeting room. tu lah melawan lagi. yes asyik gaduh dlm meeting. and i am 24 and representing my company for straight hell 2 months. all the representatives are old men. damn. people used to ask dont you fear the bosses. i dont fear people. i fear god only. but i respect people. but once i lost that from someone, you'll never get one.

i cant believe my boss trust me to handle such a big project, he only knew me for 8 months? i guess i wont experience this crappy thing if i worked in a big company. <3

i am not bragging about my work. my work is crappy. i have issues with these people that i love. and i dont have a prince charming. but i have someone to whine about, to tell all the crazy dreams and fantasy, to show my anger, to be the punching bag at the end of a very tiring day. not handsome, not rich, but someone funny which is cute. and someone smart which is so sexy!

you're going to lose that girl

after chasing part is done, here comes the first stage of the relationship. no more honeymooning, trying to fit each other. doubts overflowing, especially when you have a friend that keeps telling you, you made the wrong choice. can friends let us be happy for a few lifetimes?

i have this two friends who i matchmade. during the first stage of the relationship, if both of them have problems, they would run to me and burst everything. trying to fit each other is hard. mind became critical, misunderstanding and miscommunication is always a must. you dont trust each other. so i said to the she and the he, if you're not expressing your real feeling, the dissatisfaction to each other, you're going to lose that girl/boy. if you dont let you ego down, and say sorry, you're going to regret. and "jangan tinggal daku" words came out. makes us girls feel so touchy and burst in laughter.

sometimes you have to listen to third parties. but if they became too critical and unsupportive, you know what to do. it is you and you in this relationship. others are just the supporters and ruiners. i'm glad i am the supporters kind of friend.

i was inspired to write this post after listening to sudirman, because the he friend is a big fan of sudirman. i was his friend since 2006. i realized he had this big crush on her since the beginning. i asked him and he denied. in 2008, he confessed to me but too scared to tell because she always like other guys (or konon2 nya good guys and turned out to be a disappointment, and i found these typical guys a few times) so in 2009, after she has been through so many heart-breaking life story, i told her about him. at that time i realized she likes him too, but she herself did not notice it. after she knew it, she waited for his confession, and it took too long until she wanna give up on him. after a lot of provocation from me, "you're going to lose that girl" whatsoever, then he confessed. me and another friend "the best man" took a lot of role in their relationship making.

and now, even when they have relationships problems, they can handle it themselves, cause they dont listen to anyone anymore. they trust each other. and they're going to get enganged this november. congrats. and im going to be the bridesmaid, always will.



this is how a woman fight for her friend! and thats the reason why i love watching gA. the twisted friendship bond