.......................ini tak hampiri fantasi
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
white weddings
not all people are meant for marriage and wedding. maybe they dont find the right one in this world.destiny is in god's hand. who are we to judge about them being choosy or pathetic whatsoever.
first of all stop making fun of them by saying, no wonder they are spinster. god wont give something you cant handle. so maybe they are strong and independent enough to stand alone in this world.
second, please dont overly exaggerate your big fat wedding on social network. it hurts. for some people, it is just a dream. every woman dream of it, which color to choose. how big it will be. how big is the hantaran.but not all can choose. or not all can afford. keep it to yourself and your closed ones.
just respect others' feeling as you want people to respect yours. and if spinsterhood is the destiny that god granted me. i accept it, and will be proud of it. looking at the bright side, i will take care of my parents.
first of all stop making fun of them by saying, no wonder they are spinster. god wont give something you cant handle. so maybe they are strong and independent enough to stand alone in this world.
second, please dont overly exaggerate your big fat wedding on social network. it hurts. for some people, it is just a dream. every woman dream of it, which color to choose. how big it will be. how big is the hantaran.but not all can choose. or not all can afford. keep it to yourself and your closed ones.
just respect others' feeling as you want people to respect yours. and if spinsterhood is the destiny that god granted me. i accept it, and will be proud of it. looking at the bright side, i will take care of my parents.
Sunday, December 25, 2011
sunny gloomy weather
i've been really emotionally lately. sorry for the bad energy.
and i am falling back into the addiction of soya bean, ever since i moved to kedah. has been 2 1/2 months. i broke up 1 week after moving here. thanks kedah for the moment of truth. i know it has been 2.5 months late to thank you. you have been my shelter for 3 years since 10 years ago. now come back to me, darling. come rain or come shine.
wishing you all brighter days forward and on
p/s:used to hate this place so much when i was 14/15, thought it took away all my hometown friends. but this is where i learned about life, this is the beginning, and i felt like i am starting over. all over again.this was the stepping stone,and i feel like stepping on it again.
bye bye mucho mucho
and i am falling back into the addiction of soya bean, ever since i moved to kedah. has been 2 1/2 months. i broke up 1 week after moving here. thanks kedah for the moment of truth. i know it has been 2.5 months late to thank you. you have been my shelter for 3 years since 10 years ago. now come back to me, darling. come rain or come shine.
wishing you all brighter days forward and on
p/s:used to hate this place so much when i was 14/15, thought it took away all my hometown friends. but this is where i learned about life, this is the beginning, and i felt like i am starting over. all over again.this was the stepping stone,and i feel like stepping on it again.
bye bye mucho mucho
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
damn unpretty
Life is great for beautiful people. but not someone like me. i dont get what i want because i am unpretty. pretty girls, all they need to do is flirt and then *tada* they will get the job, money, rich and handsome husband. even the kind of good guy will choose the pretty girl, because pretty girls will look nice and kind.
on the other hand, i am ugly, unkind and unfriendly. so i look kind of one hell of devilish witch. with pointed chin. i noticed this since i was little, so i worked so hard in school. i even stayed in class (sorok2) during riadah time. i was the ugly duckling in family. my sisters and mother got the look.
and without failure i got straight As in school.
when u got all As, it doesnt stopped there. even after 7 years, people still asked me about my results. during job interviews, they are so impressed with you. compare to their 1st impression. you can inspired little children who asked about your results, to work harder
but for whoever who get not so good result, but beautiful faces, u can put your picture in ur resume. if u r 40, u can make a collection of younger and hotter picture.
ok bitterness from an ugly biatchhh haha. bye
on the other hand, i am ugly, unkind and unfriendly. so i look kind of one hell of devilish witch. with pointed chin. i noticed this since i was little, so i worked so hard in school. i even stayed in class (sorok2) during riadah time. i was the ugly duckling in family. my sisters and mother got the look.
and without failure i got straight As in school.
when u got all As, it doesnt stopped there. even after 7 years, people still asked me about my results. during job interviews, they are so impressed with you. compare to their 1st impression. you can inspired little children who asked about your results, to work harder
but for whoever who get not so good result, but beautiful faces, u can put your picture in ur resume. if u r 40, u can make a collection of younger and hotter picture.
ok bitterness from an ugly biatchhh haha. bye
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
The Walk Away
My heart skips a lup dup just now.
Eh wait.
Too much lup dup every steps
approaching you and leaving you.
Eventually
And I realized I am noone compared to you.
Ur so fine being u urself.
That was when my heart stopped to lup dup
and shattered into pieces
Pieces of vessels.
From a broken heart
Because I was too scared,
I don't make use the existence of you.
When you were with me.
I just walked away.
Walk off the terrified.
Eh wait.
Too much lup dup every steps
approaching you and leaving you.
Eventually
And I realized I am noone compared to you.
Ur so fine being u urself.
That was when my heart stopped to lup dup
and shattered into pieces
Pieces of vessels.
From a broken heart
Because I was too scared,
I don't make use the existence of you.
When you were with me.
I just walked away.
Walk off the terrified.
Monday, December 12, 2011
you ruined it once, never twice
and now, why are we talking about feelings,
like it is a thing
as if you have one,
as if you ever hunt
as if we had one mutual, once
or perhaps twice
and what are you doing asking about my feelings
like it is your thing
investigating me
as if i have one
as if i am your case
did u ever amaze
like i said, i am gladly rejecting your invitation to the dark december
to our misery december
i still remember
every detail of it
though it was erased a bit by bit
like the sound of your heartbeats
disappearing in mine
disappearing in yours
and whats up with the phone calls
and i'll call you next time
and only stupidity will leave me
as if you are one of them
like it is a thing
as if you have one,
as if you ever hunt
as if we had one mutual, once
or perhaps twice
and what are you doing asking about my feelings
like it is your thing
investigating me
as if i have one
as if i am your case
did u ever amaze
like i said, i am gladly rejecting your invitation to the dark december
to our misery december
i still remember
every detail of it
though it was erased a bit by bit
like the sound of your heartbeats
disappearing in mine
disappearing in yours
and whats up with the phone calls
and i'll call you next time
and only stupidity will leave me
as if you are one of them
Thursday, December 1, 2011
penakut
aku bukannya penakut
kau bukanlah heroic
kau buat aku like an addict
dgn kata2 medic mu
kau berlagak seperti doktor
cuba merawat lukaku yg kotor
sekali lagi kau kata
lets dive back into our misery december
boleh ku tutup mata
buang semua gementar?
dan kini,tiada apa yg pasti
hari2 ternanti
bila degupan jantung terhenti
kau pasti mati
kau bukanlah heroic
kau buat aku like an addict
dgn kata2 medic mu
kau berlagak seperti doktor
cuba merawat lukaku yg kotor
sekali lagi kau kata
lets dive back into our misery december
boleh ku tutup mata
buang semua gementar?
dan kini,tiada apa yg pasti
hari2 ternanti
bila degupan jantung terhenti
kau pasti mati
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