Universe and U

i will be strong, because you said so

i will be brave
i will be good

you said i have no reason to fear because you are there with me
even when you're not with me, i am not suppose to be afraid

to never let the spirit die, is what u said

repetitively

be strong be strong be strong. spiritually

where i lost it

i know these are just words. but it feels real

i'm glad those are from you

save me from myself

the night before, i have this dream
my sister said, she cant go travel around the world. because she's married with kids.

but she knew that im going to. im not going to have normal family. but i will have her dreams. travel all over the world. but im not alone (is it because i'm a liverpool fan or because my friends are going to join the trip?)
-bajet robin jap-

and last night, bad dream

about those heroic character, i dont mind if i dont end up with the hero. as long as i have the chance to meet him even once. and i already found him. i am thankful for that.

i will let him go, to find a perfect woman for himself. as i am not worth the pain. but i will cherish every limited moment on how you save me

she, who i adore

i want to write about her.
but i wonder if she still reads my blog.
if still, malu lahhh

i'm sadder but i'm wiser too

As you're getting older,
life is less fun
true friends are getting lesser
burden and responsible are getting bigger
money is getting more important
people are getting meaner
life is getting harder
and you're getting sadder

you're getting more depress
you're getting more desperate

then, when the time comes
you will stop
stop whining, complaining, exaggerating
you will grow up
and know what is wrong or not
you will stop thinking bad about people, stop being judgemental
and accept people the way they are
 and you will move into acceptance

but at that very twisted moment,
people will take advantage of you
but you know,
all the sadness in the world,
makes you a wiser man

perfectly dead

you're so perfect.

i could not live with that fact.

and i crave for you so bad.

cause i'm dead.

do you remember, whatsername

I tweet as I quit.
I weep as thing goes deep.
We'll meet without greet.
As you hit,I know this is all just another shit!

your image keeps replaying in my brain
and causing severe pain
i am not here in advance of game
the name is getting kind of lame

if only you could see me here
if only i could cheer
i'll wait like a stone
i'll try not to mourn

the breakage, the given up, the rejection, the depression, the desperation,the addiction

the oh so sad tragedy

how we were born and raised in the same town
went to the same shops
know the same people
yet we havent met, except in the dark pitch forest where we were not allowed to speak

how, when i met you i hate all the opportunity in the world
assuming you were just another asshole
how i regret being cold
how you are out of my league

thinking on how i will sacrifice everything for someone like you
to wish every of your pain would heal
every silence would break
just to stay in your blood, vessel, pump .what ever it is called

i longed to be in there from the day i was born
on how i have grown and gave up the idea
how could you never notice
been blinded and been warned

goodbye is left with hello, again.