something to be thankful

i am not pretty, not even close to cute
and i dont get special treatment because of my look

but there is something called love living in my breathing space
i have this crazy annoying emo family who loves me
and maybe we dont show but living too far from them sometimes they feel like strangers to me
but something runs through their blood and my blood
just inseparable

and living in this strange town, where i dont know anyone.
i found my friends. my dream friends. my-kind of greys anatomy-friends
my fairy tales friends who i thought i will never met
who i thought will only living in drama-series.
who took care of me when i was sick
who listens to my whining and insecurities
who were still my friends when im broke when i dont have anyone or anything
who offer me money
who i cannot hate, when i could possibly hate everyone
who are funny, as crazy as me, and the level of craziness is more than the craziest people i ever met

and even i sometimes were broke, i still manage to go to the most beautiful place, where i could see the autumn leaves.
i always love the spring season where there are flowers everywhere but i could not believe i could love the 180 degree season split from the spring. the falling leaves were so amazing
and i touched snow. when it is not supposed to snow yet, the snow were falling so gracefully covering the already cold earth

then i know i was loved by God. something so beautiful revolves around you and if you dont close your eyes and enjoy it, it wont come around anymore. even with your eyes wide open

Hope is a crazy thing. unsure, but let just enjoy this moment. moment when you still survive through all those heartbreaks. moment you still breathing despite all the physical pains you have experience.

Moment of Unseen Love